Angela Ryan
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Re:Lost for words... - 2009/12/22 01:12
As Christmas approaches, we reflect on the year that was. For some of us, we've loved, laughed and sadly, we've lost. For me, 6 months have passed since losing Trin, and I still can't quite beleive all that has occured. I know it's happened, but it is still so outrageous to get my head around.
To all from MPA, and beyond, my thoughts are with you all at xmas, and I hope for nothing but the best in 2010.
Thanks to Herman and Lisa, and all of you, who have supported me, it really has meant alot.
Kind Regards,
Ang xo
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Angela
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/02/06 00:01
As I sat in the Brisbane Support Group this morning, my heart starts to race, as it approaches my turn around the table to speak, and in true Ang fashion, the tears fell. I sit amongst a group of people, with a common factor, who have been brought together because of one evil, "melanoma". I somehow feel upset to have cried yet again, but surrounded with people who care, I knew it was alright. No one can ever truly explain how they feel, or what someone is going through, but I think in our own way, we have a pretty good idea. Some of us have lost, and others are fighting their own battles, but together, we become one, if only for that Friday morning in the month. I appreciate the kindness, words of support, and time that makes attending the group, worthwhile for me. By allowing a day in the month for me to be "sad" for a better word, or "reflect", is a controlled grief process in my eyes. I know some days are tougher than others, and I miss Trin like crazy, but memories are all I have left. Life if precious, a gift to be enjoyed and cherished, and until death knocks this close, we all take it a bit for granted. I have questioned my mortality, my life, my goals. I'm just taking it all in at the moment, and sadly as Trin's birthday approaches in March, these will be the times, that test the heart, as she's not here to celebrate with us. Thanks again to the Brisbane group, Herman, Lisa. I really do appreciate my few hours with you, and hopefully with time, it will get easier.
Kind Regards,
Angela x
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Angela
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/03/11 19:47
A simple reflection, and appreciation of the friend she was, and will always be to me, Trinity, who would've been 32 yesterday, had Melanoma not entered her life. I miss her more than words, and can't beleive she's not here to celebrate with us, but, your memory will live on, and I will love and miss you, forever and a day. You will be forever young.
Ang xx
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hermie1960
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/03/12 04:19
Hi Ang, every time I see you express yourself on this site I think of the true magic you bring with you. I never met Trinity but I do know that through you I feel as though I do know her. If one was to look up friendship in the dictionary a photo of you should be what is seen. In your case friendship has been so much more than words. You have shown real love and a deep commitment. As a survivor I would like to thank you for the support that you have not only offered to Trin but to so many. I am proud to say that I know you and love having you come to our meetings. You Rock.
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Angela
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/06/15 12:52
Trinity, it was 1 year today (15th June),that we sadly had to accept that you were gone. Out of pain, and at peace, but erased from our lives, never to sparkle and shine again. It has been a challenging 12 months for all, especially your husband and beautiful son. Life has gone on, as hard as that's been, and the aching pain I feel, is still ever present. We all miss you like crazy, and it's hard to beleive that your really not coming back. Melanoma has become an evil word in my vocabulary, and for it to take over your body in a mere 7 months, still astounds me to this day. They say time eases the pain, but sadly this is still so raw and vivid for all. Today we will gather, and try not to be upset, but remember and celelbrate the beauty you were, and the gift you gave to our lives. I will send messages of hope within balloons, to hopefully reach one person....that melanoma is a serious business, and prevention may definately save your life.
Such a beautiful woman, so sadly missed, you will be forever remembered. Love you forever and a day Trin, your best friend, Lil' Ang xoxo
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Sherry
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/06/21 02:12
Hello Angela, I lost my beautiful 22yr old Daughter - Kelly to Melanoma after a 13 month battle. She will never die for me as she will live on in my heart forever more. I am also fortunate enough to have her amazing young girl friends who talk about her and remember her often on Facebook or ring me to chat or laugh about something they remembered. We have a cry together as well. Thank the lord for them they also continue to keep her spirit alive and I truely adore them for that. You remind me very much of Kel's close friends and I know I speak for everyone who has loved and lost someone that it's wonderful to hear that persons name to remember them or just ask out loud what they would have thought or done about something. True Friends never forget one another and you are truely an amazing friend. Love to you and Trinity's family.
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Lisa
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/06/21 03:48
Well said Sherry. Ang - you keep true and keep Trinity's spirit alive for us all.
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Ang
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/10/02 03:54
I havn't been on the MPA website in a little while....but just watched Herman's speech from the ladies night...and felt very moved. Even though I havn't continued to attend the monthly support groups...you Herman have made a difference in my life...and so many others. Your words are very powerful..."what are you doing today?". We all need to live for the here and now....and truly appreciate what we have. My life has settled down a little... or should I say I have found a slightly happier medium within my head space...but seeing you Herman, doing your thing....felt comforting...and reassuring...and I hope MPA continues to have success, and give that genuine support that so many people have witnessed. Well done to all....MPA and Sunbedban....I applaude you. xo
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Angela
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Re:Lost for words... - 2011/02/22 04:04
Time passes so quickly....and to think in June, it will have been 2 very fast years, since our beautiful Trinity lost her battle, with Melanoma. I still find my mind playing back a "movie" so to speak, of events, and hospital visits, and that dreaded "goodbye" and I have to remind myself that it was me...and I did live those moments, and have come out the other end. I miss her terribly, but soldier on, and make the most of each day, and what it has to offer. Last Friday, after much hesitation from her husband, "us girls", went through and sorted Trinity's clothes/jewellery/and toiletries. This was a big step for her husband, but one that he was ready to make, and with our help, it is done. It's a bizarre feeling.......I know she's not coming back....and I know she wasn't wearing her clothes, but actually removing her items, feels like the final piece, in closure. We will never forget her, but actually removing her items from the family home makes it officially final...in a silly sort of way. She was so happy and vibrant, and brought so much joy to others, that life is just not the same without her. Her son is doing wonderfully, and really under the circumstances, growing into a great little man.....with the big 3rd birthday in April. Our friend no longer walks beside us, but will forever be in our hearts and memories. Love ya Trin. x
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Ang
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Re:Lost for words... - 2011/03/10 03:11
The 10th of March, is when dear Trin would've been 33. Forever young, always in our hearts, Happy Birthday my best friend. Missing you like crazy, and feeling really sad. Love you forever and day. xox
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