Angela
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Re:Lost for words... - 2010/02/06 00:01
As I sat in the Brisbane Support Group this morning, my heart starts to race, as it approaches my turn around the table to speak, and in true Ang fashion, the tears fell. I sit amongst a group of people, with a common factor, who have been brought together because of one evil, "melanoma". I somehow feel upset to have cried yet again, but surrounded with people who care, I knew it was alright. No one can ever truly explain how they feel, or what someone is going through, but I think in our own way, we have a pretty good idea. Some of us have lost, and others are fighting their own battles, but together, we become one, if only for that Friday morning in the month. I appreciate the kindness, words of support, and time that makes attending the group, worthwhile for me. By allowing a day in the month for me to be "sad" for a better word, or "reflect", is a controlled grief process in my eyes. I know some days are tougher than others, and I miss Trin like crazy, but memories are all I have left. Life if precious, a gift to be enjoyed and cherished, and until death knocks this close, we all take it a bit for granted. I have questioned my mortality, my life, my goals. I'm just taking it all in at the moment, and sadly as Trin's birthday approaches in March, these will be the times, that test the heart, as she's not here to celebrate with us. Thanks again to the Brisbane group, Herman, Lisa. I really do appreciate my few hours with you, and hopefully with time, it will get easier.
Kind Regards,
Angela x
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